It was a rough night in my cozy bed here in Buenos Aires. It was one of those nights where I hit bottom and asked myself all the questions that come up every once in awhile since I've been moving around for the last five years. "what the f am i doing? where am i, what am i doing here, what is important?"as if nothing really had sentido anymore.
I new I was being completely silly, and doing everything that the buddists, hindus, yogis and Abraham Hicks would advise me not to do.
Yet it felt so amazingly good to cry and to feel! Human! It gave me so much compassion for all my friends and loves who are going through or have gone through depression or super difficult times. In these moments I always send out a prayer to the universe, "HELP."
I woke in the morning vulnerable, my heart hurting, my soul a little chaffed. I cancelled my plans to go to the farmer's market and to play harmonium and chant with some new beautiful goddess sisters. And took the bus for an hour in the early morning with my co-teacher Juan to the final Buddhism class at the yoga studio we would be teaching at later that evening.
The profe, Andres Cordero, blew my mind for 3 hours as I sat there remembering about the path to enlightenment, surrounded by such sweet community, all striving to be the best humans possible.
I had 5 hours open post-class to explore the neighborhood of San Isidro before teaching AcroYoga that evening. There I was with no plans, apprehensive because I stood out as the foreigner, telling myself to remain calm find presence. Open to whatever would come my way in the next 5 hours. Then two sweet angels started speaking to me and asking me the getting to know you questions...de donde sos vos? que haces por aca? etc...
Marcus was short with a shaved head, very buddha looking, and carried a big drum and mallet. Joaquin was tall with sparkley eyes, a gentle simplicity and walked with his bike. They invited me along with them to lunch together. And we left the yoga studio and started walking, drumming, singing to the devis (goddesses).
At Joaquin's house, still living with his parent's and 5 brothers and sisters, we ended up hanging out in his room for awhile. His walls were painted with Mantras, inspirational quotes and original artwork. I played m'bira while Marcos Drummed and Joaquin sat in meditation. After, I invited Marcos to fly. Then Joaquin flew me and I recipricated with leg love (thai massage for the legs). Marcos was sitting in meditation, I laid down with my hands on my heart, feeling the healing. Joaquin stayed on the floor in post-acroyoga bliss... We were all sharing the intense feeling of being high on life, love, sharing and the joy of being able to go deep with people we have just met. Our brothers and sisters!
For lunch we put together Quinoa and cut up vegetables of every color and put them in the wok. Surendering to the flow~I not only was taken care of by these beautiful angels, I was cooked a meal full of love. The universe provides. When we give up everything is when we receive EveryThing. This reminds me of my friend Ankur's book "Sometimes We Walk Alone." He walked the same path for 22 days that Ghandiji did for his salt march in the Gujarat Province of India. Ankur did this all without any money, his flute, journal and a change of clothes and he was taken care of each step of the way.
Back to Marcos and Joaquin, still smiling and excited about their lives and sharing with me! We head over to Juanito and Titi's house for a going away gathering. Juanito, Titi and Marcos are leaving in a few days for an unestimated amount of time. They're traveling through Boliva, the Jungles of Peru and Ecuador to end in Colombia for a Kriya Yoga initiation in December. Maybe I'll see them there, as i envision being in Colombia all of November.
On the way to Juanito's in this pretty suburbian neighborhood we pass by a man sitting in lotus on a tree stump with a osho meditation book in his lap. We all namaste and bow to each other. Excited that others are feeling the vibration and seeking it too... We run into other friends on bikes, kiss kiss, mucho gusto...smiles. We run into Juanito too, biking in multicolored indian pants, buddha-style hairdo, huge smile, sparkly eyes...he'll meet us at his house.
A group of spunky early twenty-something gals arrive with their guitars and super open fun personalities. Milagros (miracles) sits next to me and tells me her life story (22years) and her future dreams and that she is Joaquin's partner and that they're really happy together. She's the first person I've felt totally free and flowy with since I got here a week and a half ago. I am so grateful. We laugh and can't stop laughing. I love when that happens! Every time we'd look at each other we'd just keep on laughing, not even knowing what we were laughing about. Such amazing medicine~LAUGhtEr.
The guitar starts it's magic, and the drum re-appears, my mbira too, some cymbals, shakers, meditation bowl...More friends arrive and we're all singing and playing our random instruments in the semi-dark living room feeling the love vibration for a few hours. Free, non-judgemental communica-shun.
I love how when anyone enters a room here, they come over and kiss me on the cheek, and not just a peck, but a "hi, you're already my friend, and your beautiful" kiss on the cheek. They do this to say goodbye too. I think I'm really good at the hellos and goodbyes. One love.
So I head out to meet up with Juan to review what we would be teaching in our class. I find him in a corner fruit and veggie store and can't stop laughing when he asks me how my day was.
We teach a sweet inspiring connected acroyoga class that leaves everyone wanting more, smiling and hugging each other. And I am reminded of the beauty of it all, of what I do, of this lifetime. That I am free and I am loved.
SARK:
clusters of
angels
all along
your path
wherever you go
there are
clusters of angels
on a mission
these angels
surround your soul
wherever you go
whatever happens